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My first spiritual awakening happened in my late 20’s. It was a mild awakening. No healing or inner work was involved. I believe it was meant to wake me up from my religious slumber.

At that time, I was heavily involved in the church…worship every Sunday, bible study every Wednesday night, and choir rehearsal every Friday. Even though I felt like I was really applying myself and putting in my whole heart and soul, I still felt empty inside. Is this really all there is? I felt like I was just going through the motions. I started questioning my religion, which led me on a search for answers. This is something I would have never thought to do before. Why would I? I was raised in the church, and I did as I was told without question.

When the student is ready, the teacher will appear.

A teacher does not have to be an actual person. For me, it was books. One book led to another book and then another book, and so on. Books about different religions and spiritual systems. It was all so new and interesting. I was like a sponge wanting to soak up as much knowledge as I could. The research that I did and the knowledge that I gained eventually led me to denounce my religion and dive deeper into spirituality. I wanted to have a closer, more personal relationship with God, Spirit, Creator, etc. I haven’t looked back since and never plan on going back to religion.

I understand the anger of many others who have gone through an awakening and realizing that what they’ve been taught all their lives has been a lot of misinformation. But for me, I felt free, and I wanted to share this newfound freedom with family and friends. That was a bad idea.

Have you had a spiritual awakening or are going through one now? Have you had more than one?

I was riding in the car with my mother one day when she told me that she had become a Jehovah’s Witness. I kind of shook my head and rolled my eyes. At that time, I wasn’t spiritually mature enough to know that everyone is on their own path, and I should respect everyone’s beliefs.

She proceeded to tell me more about the JW religion. I didn’t know anything about it, except that they go around neighborhoods knocking on people’s doors and handing out the Watchtower. After she stopped talking for a moment, I began asking her questions about the religion and questions about the bible. With each question, she became more and more frustrated with me. She told me that I shouldn’t be asking such questions. I asked her “why not” and she said because I just shouldn’t. I ended the conversation, not wanting her to get any angrier with me.

There were more situations like this where I tried to have discussions about religion and things that I had learned about religion. Many times, I was threatened with going to hell for questioning God. Since then, I have stopped talking about it with religious folks because it always ended in someone getting angry. Now I know I need to read the room better and only discuss religion with open-minded people.

But this was just my experience. Maybe you had a different experience, a more positive experience.

For the past two years or so, I have been seeing angel numbers all day, every day. I have gotten into the habit of writing them down. At the time I am writing this, I have already seen 11 angel numbers and the day isn’t over. When I researched “why am I seeing angel numbers so often?”, one of the explanations is that I’m aligned with the Universe. Also, that I need to remember what I was thinking about at the time I saw the number, and this is confirmation or the answer to a question I may have been pondering. Most of the time, I see these numbers at work so usually I’m not thinking about anything in particular. I’m just concentrating on the task at hand.

Another explanation for seeing the angel numbers is that the Universe is trying to send a message. I believe this to be true sometimes like when I was at work on the verge of having a little meltdown because I was overwhelmed with everything that was going wrong in my personal life. I was trying to hold back the tears when I looked over at my desk phone and saw 3:03 on the time. I googled the number and the very first result said, “your angels want you to know that everything is going to be ok.” Now if that didn’t put a huge smile on my face, nothing else could. It went on to talk about peace and harmony, but when I tell you just reading that first sentence was like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders. I felt so much better, so much happier knowing that my angels are with me and comforting me. Some people will say it’s just a coincidence. Nope. I don’t believe in coincidences. I just know that I felt so much love and peace in that moment.

I know of other people who also see angel numbers and they seem to be a little annoyed by them because they can’t figure out what the Universe is trying to tell them. But not me. I love seeing angel numbers. They make me feel like I am very much connected to the Universe and my angels are always looking out for me.

Have you been seeing angel numbers? What is the message the Universe has for you?

A few years ago, while going through a tough time with my then fiancé, I heard this inner voice urging me to end the relationship and move out of the house that we shared together. I was taken by surprise and the very thought of it made my heart race. ‘There’s no way I’m doing that!’ I said to myself. I love him and I love our home. No, no, no! There’s no way! I didn’t listen to that inner voice and things got progressively worse between us. Fast forward a few years and many tough times later, I couldn’t take it anymore and I cried out to Spirit. Again, I heard that inner voice urging me to leave. I listened this time. I packed up and moved out. Little did I know that the day I cried out to Spirit was the day that I spiritually surrendered.

What is surrendering to Spirit?

“When we surrender to God, we let go of our attachment to how things happen on the outside, and we become more concerned with what happens on the inside.” ~ Marianne Williamson

I surrendered to Spirit by letting go of what was no longer serving me and allowing things to flow in my life without resistance. Also, I started listening to that inner voice, which I feel is my Higher Self. My Higher Self communicates to me through my intuition. I listened to those gut feelings that nudged me to move in a certain direction. When you are being guided by your Higher Self, things just seem to work out. That is not to say that you won’t have any challenges. But you realize, those challenges come into your life to make you stronger, not to destroy you. When you are being divinely guided by the energy of Spirit and your Higher Self, you feel more empowered. You feel like you have taken control over your own life instead of allowing life to just happen to you.